# 51 "Answer is Why."

Answer is Why.

“Love, Hate, and War” is the life I live each and every day.
I am one of those that knows and all our lawless way.
40 years ago I soldiered for my life.
I left at home my child and my wife.
I am thinking of my poem and this line that I wrote.
I know it well so these words I can quote.
“Who is he? Who sent me there? I forgive you with this prayer.”

I do not expect you to understand me.
That would be hard for you to see.
I lived the hell of war for to many days.
Now I am different in so many ways.
Knowing the truth was seeing our conquests.
For all the suffering I have my regrets.
I cry for myself and my cause of those deaths.
I cry for my comrades and the ones they adore.
I cry for all of those and countless many more.
I cry for you and your children too.
For they have lost there freedom and few of you know.
We fought for independence now where did it go?

For 40 years I have looked for who to forgive.
So many people died and lost the right to live.
God knows I had many choices and that included him.
I let that go thinking it’s just another sin.
It began without forgiveness but was just who to blame.
I held inside all my pride it was driving me insane.
The thought was not for other souls just about me.
Now I know the answer is as close as it can be.

It started with the recruiter then changed to president.
Then it was the men and the weapons that they sent.
I added the politicians sitting in the house.
Next the congress being quiet as a mouse.
The list grew and grew and shortly you were in there too.
It didn’t take long before the world was and everyone was who.
For many years I lived alone with war crimes on my hand.
I tried to hide and keep my head hidden in the sand.
I know our evil deeds and wars are never won.
I know we plunder life with conquering never done.
Jim Raab